I have another deep realization from the last realization. I used to say that the more easier that I am able to point out a person behavior, the more likely that behavior also happened within myself. It is so cruel and true that I am hardly to accept people too direct towards me because I am the one always direct to people. I am hardly to believe that I can't even accept people to treat me the way that I always treated others, oh no~~~. How can I expect people accept my behavior as I hardly to accept people's behavior same as myself? One of my gf said the general process of growing will be accept it, suffer it and enjoy it. I had that kind of process few times in the past few years. Now i know that, there is no such thing of complete or ended process of growing as long as I am still alive.
I am learning to adjust myself to learn the way to deliver message that people can easily accept it. I hope myself can realize the mentor meant to me at this point of my life so that I can learn from him/her.
Each of the realization of myself in my life time empower me towards a wonderful life. ^^
Friday, July 16, 2010
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Opportunity
Now is about 10.17pm, I just reached home from my Sociology class. Sociology is not an easy subject to me yet every time I attended it I have thoughts after the class. I know that I always pray to the god to ask for something yet not even slow down and quietly listen what God would like to pass to me. Today I linked this to our normal life. I was asking myself how many times I didn't even give people chance when accusing people not giving me chance? (A lot). How many time I didn't listen to others when i accusing people not listening? (Plenty)
I feel so shameful and guilty that how dare I pointing people mistakes as I will make mistakes too. However, I feel so happy that at least I have some realization of myself so that I can improve form there. From now on I'd like to practice myself to ask myself first whenever I feel unhappy to somebody. I believe it can help me a lot .
I am happy that to be given a chance in the class to talk about myself. I am happy to be given a chance to listen to others in the class. This allow me to know more about my new classmates. All of them are so real and kind. My lecturer said my fiance is a lucky man to have me. In fact, in my heart I said I am the lucky person to have him for my rest of the life~~~~~~
Life is so much wonderful depend on me how to make it wonderful ~~
Lastly, I'd like to express my appreciation to those who read and leave encourage comment on my blog. Thank you so much that all of you to give away your precious time.
I feel so shameful and guilty that how dare I pointing people mistakes as I will make mistakes too. However, I feel so happy that at least I have some realization of myself so that I can improve form there. From now on I'd like to practice myself to ask myself first whenever I feel unhappy to somebody. I believe it can help me a lot .
I am happy that to be given a chance in the class to talk about myself. I am happy to be given a chance to listen to others in the class. This allow me to know more about my new classmates. All of them are so real and kind. My lecturer said my fiance is a lucky man to have me. In fact, in my heart I said I am the lucky person to have him for my rest of the life~~~~~~
Life is so much wonderful depend on me how to make it wonderful ~~
Lastly, I'd like to express my appreciation to those who read and leave encourage comment on my blog. Thank you so much that all of you to give away your precious time.
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Feeling reaction relationship
Recently, I have being occupied by different kind of people, characteristics, reactions and etc. It is so amaze that the feeling so strong as god would like me to learn something. It is really a chance or opportunity to grow. I had found all the things can be connected. The people in my working place, the people in my university and the people in my community.
The last lecture of Sociology, lecturer shown us 2 chinese character ("危机"), whenever a danger happen means the opportunity. It is really an amaze phrase, all the difficulties that I encounter in my life time also opportunities depend on how much can I realize it, depend on myself how can I grow from there. A person told me that the difficult people in my life are those who come to teach me something. He also taught me to just point out our own mistakes instead of others mistakes.
One of my best gal friend told me that women naturally will feel somethings just most of them don't express it out. However, my own issue is too fast to react them out without process the feeling through my mind then only come out to outside with body or mouth. I really have to learn how to express the feeling out that can be accepted by others. Too straight can be too rude also, it also can be very hurt, I think my ownself also don't want to be hurt by others then why myself go and hurt others?
Many people in the last Creator Of Peace Circle session told me that I was a natural and 'real' person. It can be my advantage and disadvantages also, I know if I don't learn to handle the way that I express the things I will lost a lot of joy in relationship. A person also taught me that everything yes is everything is two sides. How could I still not realize that in many things? A knife can assist us in daily life, it can also hurt us.
I really don't know how far can I grow this time, I know it can be very difficult as I had used to my old reaction so many years. However, I am looking forward to my own grow few months later.
The last lecture of Sociology, lecturer shown us 2 chinese character ("危机"), whenever a danger happen means the opportunity. It is really an amaze phrase, all the difficulties that I encounter in my life time also opportunities depend on how much can I realize it, depend on myself how can I grow from there. A person told me that the difficult people in my life are those who come to teach me something. He also taught me to just point out our own mistakes instead of others mistakes.
One of my best gal friend told me that women naturally will feel somethings just most of them don't express it out. However, my own issue is too fast to react them out without process the feeling through my mind then only come out to outside with body or mouth. I really have to learn how to express the feeling out that can be accepted by others. Too straight can be too rude also, it also can be very hurt, I think my ownself also don't want to be hurt by others then why myself go and hurt others?
Many people in the last Creator Of Peace Circle session told me that I was a natural and 'real' person. It can be my advantage and disadvantages also, I know if I don't learn to handle the way that I express the things I will lost a lot of joy in relationship. A person also taught me that everything yes is everything is two sides. How could I still not realize that in many things? A knife can assist us in daily life, it can also hurt us.
I really don't know how far can I grow this time, I know it can be very difficult as I had used to my old reaction so many years. However, I am looking forward to my own grow few months later.
Wednesday, May 05, 2010
A sharing speech in Tools of Change conference 2010
I am happy to be invited by my friend to share my life experience of one of the four standards of Initiative of Change (Iofc) in the Tools of change conference 2010.
My Speech:-
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To me, the four standards of Initiative of Change are inter related, none of them can be neglected at any time. Today, I would like to share what purity means to me.
The most impressive part that I have learnt from Initiative of Change is using quiet time to discover myself. When my mind and heart are full of dis satisfactions, disturbances, worries and etc, indirectly, it will make me get frustrated; angry easily even hurt the people around me with bad and uncivilized words and tone. My heart and mind are no longer as pure as it should be, I was lost. I have lost not only myself yet lost the good friendship, lost the good love relationship, lost the chance to care family and lost the meaning of my life.
In the past few years, I have been initiating change within myself instead of blaming others. Though the process is not easy it has brought much happiness. I have really found most of the answers within myself when my heart and mind are pure and peace within to listen to myself.
Looking back to myself, I’ve found that I was ignorant and cared more about how people looked at me. I wanted to a ‘good girl’ in people minds but that didn’t make me feel happy at all till I finally found myself in quiet time. I no longer need to do something to please people because I now know people love me for who I am and not the things that I do. At the same time, I have learnt to love the people around me for who they are with existing unique characters, looks and behaviors.
I’d like to share one article that is linked to my sharing. It said “Onion does not have heart, because it is a heart itself, and no matter how we peel the onion piece by piece to find it’s ‘heart’, surely that we will not see the heart”. If a wave thinks that he is the only one in the great sea, then he will never discover himself as part of the sea. If human can only see the outer of themselves then they will never see themselves as part of life. This article reminds me that I always used the wrong methods to love, as I should see people as a whole thing instead of peeling each slice of them.
Finally, I’d like to say it’s never too late to initiate change within myself. The feeling of happiness and satisfactions will follow my soul forever. I share this and you may feel it too and it will never be late for you too. Thank you.
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My Speech:-
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To me, the four standards of Initiative of Change are inter related, none of them can be neglected at any time. Today, I would like to share what purity means to me.
The most impressive part that I have learnt from Initiative of Change is using quiet time to discover myself. When my mind and heart are full of dis satisfactions, disturbances, worries and etc, indirectly, it will make me get frustrated; angry easily even hurt the people around me with bad and uncivilized words and tone. My heart and mind are no longer as pure as it should be, I was lost. I have lost not only myself yet lost the good friendship, lost the good love relationship, lost the chance to care family and lost the meaning of my life.
In the past few years, I have been initiating change within myself instead of blaming others. Though the process is not easy it has brought much happiness. I have really found most of the answers within myself when my heart and mind are pure and peace within to listen to myself.
Looking back to myself, I’ve found that I was ignorant and cared more about how people looked at me. I wanted to a ‘good girl’ in people minds but that didn’t make me feel happy at all till I finally found myself in quiet time. I no longer need to do something to please people because I now know people love me for who I am and not the things that I do. At the same time, I have learnt to love the people around me for who they are with existing unique characters, looks and behaviors.
I’d like to share one article that is linked to my sharing. It said “Onion does not have heart, because it is a heart itself, and no matter how we peel the onion piece by piece to find it’s ‘heart’, surely that we will not see the heart”. If a wave thinks that he is the only one in the great sea, then he will never discover himself as part of the sea. If human can only see the outer of themselves then they will never see themselves as part of life. This article reminds me that I always used the wrong methods to love, as I should see people as a whole thing instead of peeling each slice of them.
Finally, I’d like to say it’s never too late to initiate change within myself. The feeling of happiness and satisfactions will follow my soul forever. I share this and you may feel it too and it will never be late for you too. Thank you.
========================END OF SPEECH=========================
New point of view
After the past few months of life experiences, i had learnt to view everything (yes is everything) to be good. Last time whenever every little thing happen to be not good i will start negative thinking and feeling bad, start to find faults and blaming. However, it really not helping me at all.
Share with you one funny thing of me, even i appreciate that i can drive back home safely everyday. How many robber case and accident nowadays? snatch thief? yet, i am blessed by God that all so smooth, i appreciate. i appreciate everyday in heart
These few days my fiance said I did not blame him because of doing wrong, I kept quiet. Finally, I had found my own way to 'cure' myself. Whenever things gone wrong, whenever I want to angry, whenever problem arise.....I will first ask myself in heart --> Why should I angry? Is that any better way to deal with it? The funny thing I did 2 days ago, I couldn't find my electrical dictionary. Instead of blaming myself always careless , I started closed my eyes to think back the very last time I used my electrical dictionary and traced back every moment just like myself being hypnotized. I quickly called my fiance to help me check the place that beneath of driving car's seat as one day he emergency break to make all my things in the bag dropped out. The next day I really got back my dictionary. I appreciate it.
I am happy to my own improvement this time. The absolute standards of Iofc - unconditional love, honesty, purity,Unselfishness(http://www.my.iofc.org/node/44716 ) can never be perfectly achieved yet just a North Star to guide me along my life. I believe I can try my best to change myself towards it as close as I can.
Share with you one funny thing of me, even i appreciate that i can drive back home safely everyday. How many robber case and accident nowadays? snatch thief? yet, i am blessed by God that all so smooth, i appreciate. i appreciate everyday in heart
These few days my fiance said I did not blame him because of doing wrong, I kept quiet. Finally, I had found my own way to 'cure' myself. Whenever things gone wrong, whenever I want to angry, whenever problem arise.....I will first ask myself in heart --> Why should I angry? Is that any better way to deal with it? The funny thing I did 2 days ago, I couldn't find my electrical dictionary. Instead of blaming myself always careless , I started closed my eyes to think back the very last time I used my electrical dictionary and traced back every moment just like myself being hypnotized. I quickly called my fiance to help me check the place that beneath of driving car's seat as one day he emergency break to make all my things in the bag dropped out. The next day I really got back my dictionary. I appreciate it.
I am happy to my own improvement this time. The absolute standards of Iofc - unconditional love, honesty, purity,Unselfishness(http://www.my.iofc.org/node/44716 ) can never be perfectly achieved yet just a North Star to guide me along my life. I believe I can try my best to change myself towards it as close as I can.
Friday, April 09, 2010
Wonderful Quote
Of all the people you will know in a lifetime,
You are the only one you will never leave nor lose.
To the question of your life,
you are the only answer.
To the problems of your life,
you are the only solution.
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
特别的日子
今天是特别的日子，我的他向我求婚。我很开心，我回到家就和朋友分享我给他生日惊喜的过程和他给我惊喜的过程。在分享的过程中，不知不觉谈到10年前的第一份工作的经验。这不是第一次分享但是却发现自己跟多以前从来没察觉的特质。朋友说这些好的经历都因该好好的记载下来，所以我来这里写下来了。
回想起，第一份工作的两年里，我是个无知和不会照顾别人感受的人。我只懂得拼命工作导致效率过高引起不满，在20人当中被排挤。当技术人员教导我们把crystal 放入机器时要刚刚好正中央，我考虑到肉眼来衡量比较困难，于是隔天就用纸皮剪了3 寸和4寸的圆形来方便自己。每次都很准确的放入机器grinding. 几个月后，supervisor就叫人用好的塑料来打造一样的补助平。以后就成为整个程序的一部分。
很快的这个新部门就要开始生产线了，20个人分成2组，我成为leader带领一队，每次前一个shift交棒是都很凌乱，在我这个shift我就把整齐持续的东西交棒回去。过不久我train另个人称为第三个shift的leader， 她也不满意凌乱和埋怨，我还是教导她做整齐来交棒。很快地，分成4个shift了。当我的shift的人有困难我马上出来帮忙解决，训练了几个新人，当每个人忙碌得不可开交就埋怨上个shift的人没有擦地板。我就快点解决手头上的工作然后帮忙擦地板。日子久了，他们也会习惯的去擦地板了。我和他们的距离也小了。新人也不需要我训练了，我的徒弟会训练他们。欣慰的是有一次我听到徒弟说：“这个从Cherry QC 出来的都写到很整齐的，你可以很快的把货物电算完毕然后包裹”。
有一次，生产线必须停顿就因为第三个步骤的其中一个补助工具坏了不能取得样品放入机器做测试。 我却可以用tweezer的尾端来取得样品测试完毕继续让生产线运作。用这个方法很危险，机会只有一次，很容易毁掉整片都拿不到样品。4个shift里面只有我能做好，所以在新的工具来之前，我必须帮忙做完4个shift 的测试工作。
。。。。故事说完了以后，朋友问道：“那么你在两年里面向自己学习到什么？”。 当下我真的想不出来。我说:"我知道自己对人的态度必须改进，当我觉得对的事情就去做，日子久了人们也明白"。 但是现在我有所发现，原来我在很久以前就有的能力，而我居然忽视了它。我有创意能力，......
回想起，第一份工作的两年里，我是个无知和不会照顾别人感受的人。我只懂得拼命工作导致效率过高引起不满，在20人当中被排挤。当技术人员教导我们把crystal 放入机器时要刚刚好正中央，我考虑到肉眼来衡量比较困难，于是隔天就用纸皮剪了3 寸和4寸的圆形来方便自己。每次都很准确的放入机器grinding. 几个月后，supervisor就叫人用好的塑料来打造一样的补助平。以后就成为整个程序的一部分。
很快的这个新部门就要开始生产线了，20个人分成2组，我成为leader带领一队，每次前一个shift交棒是都很凌乱，在我这个shift我就把整齐持续的东西交棒回去。过不久我train另个人称为第三个shift的leader， 她也不满意凌乱和埋怨，我还是教导她做整齐来交棒。很快地，分成4个shift了。当我的shift的人有困难我马上出来帮忙解决，训练了几个新人，当每个人忙碌得不可开交就埋怨上个shift的人没有擦地板。我就快点解决手头上的工作然后帮忙擦地板。日子久了，他们也会习惯的去擦地板了。我和他们的距离也小了。新人也不需要我训练了，我的徒弟会训练他们。欣慰的是有一次我听到徒弟说：“这个从Cherry QC 出来的都写到很整齐的，你可以很快的把货物电算完毕然后包裹”。
有一次，生产线必须停顿就因为第三个步骤的其中一个补助工具坏了不能取得样品放入机器做测试。 我却可以用tweezer的尾端来取得样品测试完毕继续让生产线运作。用这个方法很危险，机会只有一次，很容易毁掉整片都拿不到样品。4个shift里面只有我能做好，所以在新的工具来之前，我必须帮忙做完4个shift 的测试工作。
。。。。故事说完了以后，朋友问道：“那么你在两年里面向自己学习到什么？”。 当下我真的想不出来。我说:"我知道自己对人的态度必须改进，当我觉得对的事情就去做，日子久了人们也明白"。 但是现在我有所发现，原来我在很久以前就有的能力，而我居然忽视了它。我有创意能力，......
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
生命的他
记得有个朋友和我说过，当她遇到生命的他的时候是那么的自然，就像一颗种子掉入土地之然生长发芽到开花。她觉得痛苦尽力了几十年就是为了遇见他。当时的我真的没有办法去体会她说的一切，但是此时此刻的我却觉得自己感同身受了。回想起与他的相遇，相知到相爱原来都是那么的自然。
感觉很幸福有他在身边。他天天陪着我，我病了他比我还紧张，在车上会拿小枕头给我抱，没饿他替我先饿的帮我买食物。。。。感谢这一切一切，感受这一切一切，珍惜这一切一切。
感觉很幸福有他在身边。他天天陪着我，我病了他比我还紧张，在车上会拿小枕头给我抱，没饿他替我先饿的帮我买食物。。。。感谢这一切一切，感受这一切一切，珍惜这一切一切。
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