Another deep realization

I have another deep realization from the last realization. I used to say that the more easier that I am able to point out a person behavior, the more likely that behavior also happened within myself. It is so cruel and true that I am hardly to accept people too direct towards me because I am the one always direct to people. I am hardly to believe that I can't even accept people to treat me the way that I always treated others, oh no~~~. How can I expect people accept my behavior as I hardly to accept people's behavior same as myself? One of my gf said the general process of growing will be accept it, suffer it and enjoy it. I had that kind of process few times in the past few years. Now i know that, there is no such thing of complete or ended process of growing as long as I am still alive.
I am learning to adjust myself to learn the way to deliver message that people can easily accept it. I hope myself can realize the mentor meant to me at this point of my life so that I can learn from him/her.
Each of the realization of myself in my life time empower me towards a wonderful life. ^^

Opportunity

Now is about 10.17pm, I just reached home from my Sociology class. Sociology is not an easy subject to me yet every time I attended it I have thoughts after the class. I know that I always pray to the god to ask for something yet not even slow down and quietly listen what God would like to pass to me. Today I linked this to our normal life. I was asking myself how many times I didn't even give people chance when accusing people not giving me chance? (A lot). How many time I didn't listen to others when i accusing people not listening? (Plenty)
I feel so shameful and guilty that how dare I pointing people mistakes as I will make mistakes too. However, I feel so happy that at least I have some realization of myself so that I can improve form there. From now on I'd like to practice myself to ask myself first whenever I feel unhappy to somebody. I believe it can help me a lot .
I am happy that to be given a chance in the class to talk about myself. I am happy to be given a chance to listen to others in the class. This allow me to know more about my new classmates. All of them are so real and kind. My lecturer said my fiance is a lucky man to have me. In fact, in my heart I said I am the lucky person to have him for my rest of the life~~~~~~
Life is so much wonderful depend on me how to make it wonderful ~~

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