A sharing speech in Tools of Change conference 2010

I am happy to be invited by my friend to share my life experience of one of the four standards of Initiative of Change (Iofc) in the Tools of change conference 2010.

My Speech:-
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To me, the four standards of Initiative of Change are inter related, none of them can be neglected at any time. Today, I would like to share what purity means to me.

The most impressive part that I have learnt from Initiative of Change is using quiet time to discover myself. When my mind and heart are full of dis satisfactions, disturbances, worries and etc, indirectly, it will make me get frustrated; angry easily even hurt the people around me with bad and uncivilized words and tone. My heart and mind are no longer as pure as it should be, I was lost. I have lost not only myself yet lost the good friendship, lost the good love relationship, lost the chance to care family and lost the meaning of my life.

In the past few years, I have been initiating change within myself instead of blaming others. Though the process is not easy it has brought much happiness. I have really found most of the answers within myself when my heart and mind are pure and peace within to listen to myself.

Looking back to myself, I’ve found that I was ignorant and cared more about how people looked at me. I wanted to a ‘good girl’ in people minds but that didn’t make me feel happy at all till I finally found myself in quiet time. I no longer need to do something to please people because I now know people love me for who I am and not the things that I do. At the same time, I have learnt to love the people around me for who they are with existing unique characters, looks and behaviors.

I’d like to share one article that is linked to my sharing. It said “Onion does not have heart, because it is a heart itself, and no matter how we peel the onion piece by piece to find it’s ‘heart’, surely that we will not see the heart”. If a wave thinks that he is the only one in the great sea, then he will never discover himself as part of the sea. If human can only see the outer of themselves then they will never see themselves as part of life. This article reminds me that I always used the wrong methods to love, as I should see people as a whole thing instead of peeling each slice of them.

Finally, I’d like to say it’s never too late to initiate change within myself. The feeling of happiness and satisfactions will follow my soul forever. I share this and you may feel it too and it will never be late for you too. Thank you.

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New point of view

After the past few months of life experiences, i had learnt to view everything (yes is everything) to be good. Last time whenever every little thing happen to be not good i will start negative thinking and feeling bad, start to find faults and blaming. However, it really not helping me at all.
Share with you one funny thing of me, even i appreciate that i can drive back home safely everyday. How many robber case and accident nowadays? snatch thief? yet, i am blessed by God that all so smooth, i appreciate. i appreciate everyday in heart
These few days my fiance said I did not blame him because of doing wrong, I kept quiet. Finally, I had found my own way to 'cure' myself. Whenever things gone wrong, whenever I want to angry, whenever problem arise.....I will first ask myself in heart --> Why should I angry? Is that any better way to deal with it? The funny thing I did 2 days ago, I couldn't find my electrical dictionary. Instead of blaming myself always careless , I started closed my eyes to think back the very last time I used my electrical dictionary and traced back every moment just like myself being hypnotized. I quickly called my fiance to help me check the place that beneath of driving car's seat as one day he emergency break to make all my things in the bag dropped out. The next day I really got back my dictionary. I appreciate it.
I am happy to my own improvement this time. The absolute standards of Iofc - unconditional love, honesty, purity,Unselfishness(http://www.my.iofc.org/node/44716 ) can never be perfectly achieved yet just a North Star to guide me along my life. I believe I can try my best to change myself towards it as close as I can.